Love is Bliss of the Self

By Sudhaji Newton

All that is.

I am not this body.

I see that I am my mother yet my mother does not exist.

I see that I am my father yet my father does not exist.

I see that I am my husband yet my husband does not exist.

I see that I am everybody yet no one exists.

I belong to everything yet nothing. I am pure existence consciousness bliss. I am Love itself. Love does not have a cause. There is nothing to understand about it. Love does not have boundaries or conditions.

Love is not a kiss or sex. Love is not an idea, a belief or a concept. Love is not something that can be taken away from you or given to you. Love is not about wanting it, having a desire for it or needing it. Yet love never stops.

Love does not belong to anyone yet it is in all Being. Yes, love is in all beings yet it is not separate.

The Love that I speak about is not an object – it is a being – the Higher Self. Some call it the love of God, the Divine nectar, the higher Self, Bhagavan, ”All that is,” the Divine, the Presence, or Awareness. It has many other names. Love is formless and limitless yet it is still and silent. This love is bliss of the Self.

There is only One Being, One Self. “This is what I am,” the ultimate truth. I and my father, Bhagavan, are one. This is a state of Oneness. This is living a whole new life!

“The whole world is one family” – Sri Bhagavan

It is Time to Awaken into One World

Channeled by Joshua, Translated by Sudhaji

After some time away from this blog, it is time to resurface with a new message, as channeled through Sudhaji from Joshua on August 31, 2011. It is a message for all humanity:

It is time for everyone to awaken into One World and one heart.  It is time for everyone to open up your hearts to love unconditionally.  It is time for everyone to express their love for one other.  It is time for everyone to embrace each other with love and the power of peace.  It is time for One World to emerge and to awaken out of all of this devastation that is happening on your planet.  It is time for everyone to say “Yes, I will help and love my neighbor, my sister, a stranger, my community and other people around me in this world.”

Love does not belong to anyone. It is not your love, his love or their love.  Love does not have conditions or ownership to it.  Love is love for no reason at all.  Love loves everything and everybody.

It is time for everyone to end all division and separation within and without.  It is time for everyone to express their love and compassion for one another.  It is time that each one of you offers your food, your money, and your home to those in need.  Nothing is yours.  It is time we all sit and embrace each other as one being, one heart, and One World.  In this One World we will hold hands and speak kind and gentle words to one another.  It is time to wake up now!

I ask each one of you to hear my message of unconditional love.

Do not be afraid or panic about what is happening on this planet. You call it devastation.  We call it a “Divine cleansing.”  We use the word “Divine” not to advocate any religious meaning but to mean “a shift in the collective consciousness of mankind,” which is happening right now to open up your hearts.

This message is for everyone on this planet.

Stop looking to material things to bring you happiness and joy.  The outer world will not give you that.  It is time for each one of you to look inside yourself, the inner world, to awaken to unconditional joy, happiness and inner peace.

I say to each one of you: look around.  What do you see?

You see everyone running around worrying about how they can get more and more material things.  All this division and separation will not give you love, freedom or inner peace.

Look around.

Some of you are running around trying to be more superior, more spiritual, more powerful, more important and more controlling over others.  The material world is not who you are. It is time for this kind of consciousness to come to end.

Each event that happens in your life is a gift for you to awaken into a state of unconditional love, happiness and peace in the One World.

Stop running.

Look inside and you will see your true self: your “Beingness.”  Your Being is love and nothing else. It is time to awake up to that Being.  Be prepared as the cleansing is happening now.  Be in love, not fear.  It is time for the light of love to shine bright on this planet.

You are not this body that you think you are. You are not separate from the Divine.  You are the Buddha.  You are God.  You are Jesus.  You are Allah.  You are Krishna.  You are the Guru and you are the Divine.

Bow down, bow down.  Do not fear what is going on in your life.  Embrace it and let the light of love shine forth.

Share your bread with others.

Bow down.  Bow down to the light of love and peace.  Bow down, bow down.  It is time for all to awaken into the One World.  We are here to help guide each one of you to awaken into that Being of love and peace for the One World.

Peace to all Beings  -  Joshua   [2011-August-31]

Conflict-free Life Is:

By Sudhaji Newton

Looking within is: to look within without resisting what is there.

Looking within without resisting what is there is: not identifying yourself as the “I,” the “me” or the “not me.”

Not identifying yourself as the “I,” the ”me” or the “not me” is: seeing life in new way, reflecting in a new way and taking right action in a new way.

Seeing in a new way, reflecting in a new way and taking right action in a new way is: experiencing life “as it is.”

Experiencing life “as it is” is: a higher state of awareness.

A higher state of awareness is: when the mind is still, silent and quiet.

When the mind is still, silent and quiet is: a state of joy, inner peace, love and happiness.

A state of joy, inner peace, love and happiness is: a state of Oneness.

The state of Oneness is: the awakening of the Divine Self within.

The awakening of the Divine Self within is: the one who is living a conflict-free life.

Living a conflict-free life is: living a whole new life in a state of bliss!

Awakening: The Ascension. 2012 and Beyond

Channeled by Joshua, Translated by Buddhakrishna

January 12, 2011:  My wife, Sudhaji, is an awakened divine being who channels other divine beings.  I have the benefit of receiving messages from these beings regularly and she has channeled for many of our clients as well.

This beautiful message is to all humanity.  Joshua channeled this message through Sudhaji beginning November 27, 2010:

This is the second coming of Christ.  The Ascension is here.  I, Joshua, say to each one of you: stand before us and whomever you pray to and bow down, bow down, bow down.

We beings are here to shed the light of love and peace for humanity as a whole.  It is time for hearts to sing, to rejoice in the being-ness of who you really are.  It is time to be happy – to live life in a state of unconditional love and joy.  It is time to unite – no more division and separation.

Ascension is here now.  There will be no more pain, suffering, unhappiness or problems – they are all illusions.  Stop complaining, fighting, judging and blaming.  Choose your words wisely.  Stop looking backward into the past.  Don’t worry about the future.  You only have now – this very moment.  Shed your skin and repent your sins in this moment.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

There can be no more separation on this planet, no more man in his lies.  You must either choose God, Brahma, Buddha, Jesus, Allah, Jehova, Unity, the Great Mystery, the Om, the One – whomever your pray to – or stay where you are.  I don’t care what book you read.  Read what is in your heart – the heart does not divide.  If you read any scripture with an open heart, you will receive the scripture more clearly.  Stand before whomever you pray to.  Even those who do not pray must bow down to the universal source.  If you do not pray to anyone then focus only on the love within your heart.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

Choose now.  We are not here to tell you – we are here to guide, for you can “no longer” stay like this.  Drop your words of pain and blame and hate.  How much more bloodshed, tsunamis, and pain must there be before you really hear what we are saying to you – before you can see what you are doing.  Please, bow down, bow down, bow down.

Shed your clothes.  No more shirts and ties.  Embrace each other.  Stop looking at color of skin… financial bracket… money in your purse.  None of it belongs to you.  Bow down for the light of the Lord is here.  It is time for the light to shine on this planet.  Shine the light of love and peace.

This is not your America.  This is not your planet, no matter how much you say it is.  Nothing belongs to you.  Did you create your body?  Did you create your soul?  I, Joshua,  answer, “No! No! No!”  Then who are you to say these things belong to you?  Who are you to say that someone is not being a true American?  Who are you to say these words?  Inside your heart there is no color, no division, no “left out,” no “mine.”

Your first priority and greatest treasure is to love yourself, your family and your neighbors.  But you don’t.  You focus on comparing.  When you look at others  - whether they be your family, spouse or neighbors – you want what they have in order to feel powerful and secure.  You worry about what they have and what you do not.  You worry about money and material things.  We are not saying you cannot have the material things, for they are there for you to have.  But you have to first look at yourself.  Who are you hurting?  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

Bow down in the light of the Lord.  There is no need for bloodshed.  You think what you do is right or wrong.  Right and wrong do not exist.  Only unconditional love exists, not the love you speak of.  Inside your heart there is love for all.  We are all one being.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

I, Joshua, ask each one of you to stand in front of the mirror and shed your clothes, shed your skin, for you must see who you really are.  You are not this body or these bones – you are much more that.  Look into the mirror.  Can you speak truth about who you really are?  Can you see your pain, your unhappiness and lies?  Can you speak truth about your pain, your hurt and all that is going on inside of you?  Can you speak truth about all that you see inside?  Or are you too busy running, hiding, judging and condemning those around you as well as yourself?

When you don’t speak truth, when you feel separate from the light of love, “you” create the chaos in the outer world because you are running, hiding, and stealing.  You may not think that you are killing or causing the tsunamis, mudslides and earthquakes but you are when you do not stand in truth of who you are.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

But you really don’t want to remove your clothing and look beneath the skin to see what is really there.  Do you accept yourself as you are?  You do not.  You are too afraid to look in the mirror and see the false self: the self that is powerless and insecure, the self that is unhappy, uncomfortable, angry and judgmental.  You don’t want to accept those things so you hide from your thoughts and feelings.  You do not want to stand before the Divine and see the truth.  But it is now time to bow down, bow down, bow down.

Stand before the mirror, speak truth and only worry about you.  Love yourself without a shirt and tie, or wealth, or power.  Remove your robe.  It is time to be authentic about what’s inside of you.  Focus on what going on in your inner world – it is a reflection of your outer world – the world you call the physical world. Stand before the light of the Divine, whoever that is for you, and repent your sins.  If you do not have the light of the Divine within you – find it now; it is time.

I, Joshua, see everything inside of you for there is nothing inside of you.  Do not attach to anything.  Do not cling to anything.  Turn within to the light of love for that is who you are.  Sit with us for we do not judge you. I, Joshua, ask each one of you to bow down, bow down, bow down.  Do not wait.  Do it now.  It is time for the light of Divine love to shine in you.

We want to empty your mind and help you enter into a state of silence to free you from all the negative chatter that you are spilling into this planet.  Lay down all of your weapons – even your weapons of words for they are hurting you and destroying this planet.  Pay attention to your actions and deeds.  These words are like bullets. Who do you speak to when you speak such harsh words?  What do you feel when you speak them?  Pay attention.  Pay attention.

You must realize the words you use can create peace and love or they can create destruction.  You must look in the mirror and see yourself.  You are not separate from us – we are one being.  But if you keep using these harsh words you will see what will happen to your planet.  You are the creator of it and you can also destroy it.

We will empty you of these words so you can rise and be in the divine peace of who you are.  When your mind becomes still, quiet and peaceful, you are with the divine: no separation, no chaos, no division, no depression, no unhappiness, no misery, no killing, only peace, only love.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down with us.

Ascension is happening now.  Speak our words and you can’t hurt yourself or others.  When you speak our words you will look into the eyes of another and see God.  You will see there is only one being: no division or separation.  Lay your weapons down.  For your planet to be here in 2012, stand before each other and embrace with love, peace and harmony.  Bow down.  Bow down. Bow down.

Now you may feel the words in this message are false.  I, Joshua, am telling you they are not.  If you doubt what I say, you will see in the coming months.  You will see in 2012 that my words are true, for this is the Ascension, the second coming of Christ.  It doesn’t matter if you think it is not, for I am not a state of thought or belief.  I speak truth.  I am Joshua.  Who are you?

Stop all thought and be in the heart and soul of love.  Love is an ocean – an eternal being for all.  The eternal ocean of love does not belong to anyone.  You can never say this is “my” eternal ocean, “my” peace, “my” love.  You can never say that the ocean of bliss “belongs” to you.  I, Joshua, want to share it with all of mankind.  I, Joshua, want you to experience and know the true nature of who you really are.  I, Joshua, are truly the REAL you.

We are here to awaken the divinity within you.  We are here only to love and embrace you as you are.  Speak kindly and sing our song of peace.  Love the divinity of who you are.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

When your new state of being comes, some of you, not knowing what just happened, may go into a very deep state of depression.  Others will go into a state of enlightenment.  It will happen soon because the Ascension is here now.  Whatever words you use, know from your faith that the light of love will rise.  It will be a shaky ride, but if you hold onto your faith and don’t move, you will make it.  If you keep condemning and hurting, you will not.  You choose.

Stand up and realize who you really are.  You are God, Brahma, Buddha, Jesus, Allah, Jehova, Unity, the Great Mystery, the Om, the One – whomever you pray to.  Whatever scriptures you read, don’t read with the mind.  Whatever your scriptures, come with us with an open heart so the light of love can fill it.  I do not ask you to take my word for it – you will see if you truly understand the book you read.

It is time to prepare yourself for the Ascension.  It is time for this planet to be in the being-ness of love, not the thinking-ness of love.  All who are willing will come with us.  All who are not will perish.  Be prepared.  Sing my song of love and peace for all.

We love you all.  Peace to all beings.  Bow down.  Bow down.  Bow down.

- Joshua (2010- November-27)

How I Transcended My Depression and Live a Whole New Life

Watch this video of how one of our co-founders, Sudhaji Newton, transcended her suicidal depression and unhappiness. Now she’s living a whole new life!

It will touch your soul.

Sudhaji: A Story of Transformation

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Self Seeing false self: Ending Suffering

by Buddhakrishna (Gary) Newton

You can end your suffering when you (“Self”) see how your mind (“false self”) tricks you into believing the stories it uses to control you.

The mind wants to connect to whatever it can in order to hold on to its own false sense of control. It will take what your senses see, smell or feel, subjectively filter out most of the truth of what’s actually there and store what’s left as a memory. When a new situation arises, it compares this newly filtered and incomplete sensory information to your imperfect memory about the past and creates an illusion that the two are related. Now we have a story to attach to: a filtered experience attached to a subjective memory wrapped around an illusion.

Since the mind needs to make this make sense, it will find a way to do so, lying if it must. It will make up whatever it needs you to believe about yourself or others. These thoughts can create unhealthy reactions before they even manifest as thoughts.  You listen to the illusion in your head and feel it in your body. You react to what going on inside.  You automatically form an intention to have another thought that reinforces the story.  This sets up your next reaction.

But it doesn’t stop with you.  You only pick up part of the intention, the rest of this energy goes out into the atmosphere where the universe, following your instructions, manifests it further and brings the reaction you just dreamed up right back to you in the form of yet another miserable experience.  You have just recreated your misery and proven again why you should be miserable.  This feeds your illusion and sets up a viciously self-perpetuating cycle that reinforces the mind’s false sense of control.

You can interrupt this cycle right when you begin to notice these seemingly automatic reactions.  Ask yourself, “Who am I?”  When you get an answer ask, “Who is it that is answering?”  Then ask the same question again.  And again.  And again.  You’ll eventually get to a place where there is no answer that makes sense.  That’s because the mind cannot go where the Self is.  The “Self” is now seeing the “self.”  This is where your suffering ends because you can see the mind which has a story about an illusion based on faulty information.  It doesn’t even matter what the content of the story is – what’s important is realizing it’s just a story.  When you drop the story, you release the suffering.

To Get Beyond the Pain, Get Beyond the Story

by Buddhakrishna (Gary) Newton

The depth of my sadness was immeasurable.  The burnt-out cavity inside my chest became my retreat from feelings.  But this fortress around my heart had grown so thick, so calloused that it almost cost me my marriage and any hope of happiness.  I was lost in desperation, alone and rudderless, when I finally discovered that by surrendering my mind’s story about my despair, I could live free of it, replenish my marriage and experience a whole new life.

I learned before the age of thirteen that survival meant going along with my father’s plan.  It was dangerous to disagree with him.  I maneuvered around his intimidation by tightly packing my emotions into an airtight container, lest they dare challenge his rule.  Retreat.  Keep quiet.  Numb out and live another day – a skill I honed well as a teen.

I married at twenty-three.  She and I truly enjoyed each other’s company but having different values, we drifted apart after just a few short years.  Not knowing how to share my anxieties about our marriage with her, true to form I stuffed my apprehension away to ferment while I retreated into my own world.  I could be completely silent for hours, even a whole day – that’ll show her, I calculated.  While that did cause her pain, it did nothing to numb my own.

I began hanging out after work in places I had no business being just to buy myself a few hours of home-avoidance.  I drank socially but alcohol was not my drug of choice.  Sex was.  When I discovered how many pretty women would tolerate a well-dressed, computer-programming married guy, it was on.  I escaped into a sexcapade of attention-starved hotties.  My sexual lashing out was in direct proportion to the misery I hid from until the day it smacked me cold in the face.  It was only our second private encounter when one curvy acquaintance said she loved me and that she wanted me to help her quit cocaine.  What?  This is not a relationship, I replied… silently.  What am I doing?  This is getting way out of control.  Who have I become?  I didn’t like the answer.  I stopped long enough to tell my wife that we needed to divorce and she readily agreed.  So we did.  The interruption was temporary.

My early thirties as Single Man were really just more of the same except I didn’t have to sneak.  I allowed no one to leave so much as a toothbrush and they each knew there were others.  I still resonated with the idea of marriage, mind you, just not the getting close part.  I spent many a lonely holiday but it just wasn’t worth the risk of making a meaningful connection.  Then came Sharon.  Her tidal wave of beauty and passion sucker-punched my emotional fortress, annihilated her competition – there was no competition really – and reawakened my hope for mankind itself.  We fell deeply in love and began living together – her Jersey apartment during the week as it was closer to our jobs, and my place in Pennsylvania on the weekends.

Our first year together featured female surgery, Sharon’s own divorce, the loss of her job, major leg surgery to relieve some of the severe chronic pain from her original leg surgery two years earlier, counseling to help her deal with her brother’s death and a natural gas pipeline explosion that vaporized her apartment and our cars.  One bright note: escaping from the explosion with just our lives and the clothes on our backs sharply focused what we meant to each other.  We married five months later.  The stage was set.

Having no chance to grieve even one of her back-to-back traumas, Sharon bottled up her pain and anger and slid into a bottomless pit of suicidal depression.  I spent every day of our first eleven years of marriage wondering, “Will today be the day I find her dead body?”  Her suppressed rage boiled over several times a week and I, being who she trusted most, took the brunt of it.  At first I struck back, feeling obliged to protect myself with stinging verbal comebacks, but that only escalated things.  I eventually became quite good at reading her patterns and realized that her outbursts had nothing to do with me.  I just had to learn to let them flow around me rather than through me.  Calling on my familiar toolset, I prepared my own hurts and sadness for cold storage, beefed up the wall around my heart and settled in for a long marital winter.  I pretended to myself that I was OK and did what I thought I had to do to get through each day.

Why me?  What did I do to deserve this?  This isn’t fair.  Should I stay?  My pity routine alternated with telling her many times, and meaning it, that I would gladly transfer her pain into me if only I could.  It killed me to see her this way and to know there was nothing I could do.  I felt helpless, powerless, impotent, unable to protect my wife.  The relentless cycle of cautious highs and desperate lows was exhausting.  I continually struggled to summon enough energy to emotionally support Sharon through her tantrums, breakdowns and threats of suicide, which had become an occasionally attractive option even for me.  It was all-consuming and overwhelming.

My few gambles to voice my own despair were nullified by Sharon’s sharp attacks, which instantly transported me each time right back to that cowering teenager shut down by his oppressive father.  Entombed in her own anguish, Sharon thought that my hurt, as compared to hers, wasn’t worth discussing.  So I didn’t; there was simply no room for mine so why bother.  Alone again, I robotically plodded through the motions, but still firmly committed to seeing our marriage transcend her depression.  Beneath it all, I did still love her and I had more faith in Sharon than she had in herself.

In year eleven, while in India seeking solace in a month-long program of deep introspection, Sharon phoned to ecstatically report that she truly wanted to live.  By now too numb to even muster excitement at this incredible news, I simply put my head in my hands, leaned on our kitchen counter and felt a thousand pounds of stress shed from my shoulders like sheets of dead skin.  I was grateful beyond words that my wife would not take her life in order to end her pain.  It was finally over.  Or so I thought.

Home, having emerged victoriously from her emotional prison, Sharon was a brand new person: calm, energetic and fully engaged in life again.  We started getting reacquainted as the void left by her depression could now be replenished with joy and happiness.  But an invisible tide was turning.  With my wife having faced her demons, it was now my turn.

Sharon deferred processing the grief from her traumas and wound up in full blown suicidal depression.  I know now that I ran from processing my distress during her depression.  Yes, I definitely found ways to let her anger flow around me rather than through me in order to get through the day, and I learned some valuable coping skills.  But after so many years of living behind that iron curtain around my heart, I had become so emotionally comatose that I didn’t trust enough to fully come out of hibernation.  I had tricked myself into believing that I could just stuff my feelings so far away that they were no longer even there.  Boy, was I wrong.

I projected my now-boiling rage at the one I trusted most – Sharon – so she took the brunt of it.  I often felt angry for no reason and, needing a convenient target other than me, blamed her Depression Years for my snapping sarcastically at the slightest provocation.  I made it her fault for making me furious for even remembering why I punched ten holes into our sheetrock walls four years earlier after she said something that badly hurt me.

I allowed work to distract me.  I went in earlier, stayed later and didn’t miss days.  I even took the long way home to extend my trance.  Sometimes I just felt confused.  This was not supposed to happen.  Hadn’t I just survived the most grueling eleven years of my life?  Why am I not happy?

So true to pattern, I withdrew.  I played cold and distant to avoid the reality of what I was feeling, adding rebar to reinforce my barrier.  The closer Sharon tried to get, the further away I slipped.  I held back from fully loving her for fear of getting hurt again.  All aspects of our relationship suffered: our friendship, our fun, our finances and, ironically for me, our sex life.  We argued and blamed and it intensified weekly.  Finally, we both reached the breaking point.  It was time to make a choice.

I knew I was projecting my pain onto her.  I knew I was actively maintaining, no, expanding, my emotional blockade.  I knew the wall had to come down if we were to have any future together.  But it wasn’t just about my future with Sharon.  It was even more about my future with me.

I had to come to grips with some serious questions about myself.  Am I this hardened heart unable to love?  I already knew that if the answer was yes, then this issue would play out in my next relationship, no matter who it’s with.  Not very appealing.  Was I shutting myself out from all that life has in store for me?  If I was then all the trauma of the last dozen years was surely in vain.  What a waste.  Would resolving my recurring issues turn out to be easier than continuing to suffer through them?  I didn’t know but just the thought of having to come back in my next life and relive this one…  I don’t think so.  So there it was.  I had to beat back my demons by asking the truest question of all: “Who Am I?”

Yes, surrendering my wall was scary as hell.  I didn’t really know who I’d find on the other side because I had been hiding from myself since I was a young boy.  Yet my fear of letting go of my emotional fortress was, I know now, far worse than the actual work of dissolving it.  I’m not saying it was easy.  No.  Hell no, even.  There was that mirror of truth thing to deal with.  I am saying it was possible.  And doable.  And I did it.  And it was worth it.

All the anguish I’ve been through my whole life now makes sense – I can see that it served a purpose.  I realize that I got lost in the stories I told myself about my memories of pain and went to great lengths to pretend my stories were reality.  Now, equipped to observe disturbances without the need to identify with them, I can simply acknowledge their presence without being consumed and controlled by anger or sadness or fear.  The first time it truly struck me just how much time and energy and heartache I wasted identifying with things, I actually broke out laughing at the absurdity of it.

Now Sharon and I, both 53, are living a whole new life together.  We have replenished the essence of our marriage with calmness and peace. I am often happy for no identifiable reason.  I am very grateful for all aspects of what I’ve been through because it helped me remember who I really am.  I am not alone.  I am free.

Dropping the Mind

What is “dropping the mind” and why would anyone want to do that?

Chatter, chatter, chatter. I can’t. I should. I want. I’m not. I could be. All of that is suffering caused by the mind. The mind who wants to be. The mind who thinks it is. The powerful trickster that wants control, that tries to refuse with all its energy to submit to annihilation. But who is the Thinker, the end-user of this mind? That is where we are. Our Divine Self. Beyond the mind’s horizon. Beyond it’s ability to comprehend.

Drop the mind.       See your Self.